And just like that, 40 years have flown by. My life has been full and rich, full of all kinds of adventures. I can look back on these 40 years, and know that my life has been blessed, and look forward to many more adventures to come.
Leading up to 40, I was a bit worried that it might throw me into a bit of an existential crisis. Amazingly enough, I feel fantastic! Turning 40 has been much easier than turning 30. I feel so much more in charge of my life. I’m happy with who I am and where I’m at. I have 9 years until I reach middle age and I’m completely fine with that.
One of the best things I have acquired in my 30s, is a sense of confidence in myself and my opinions and beliefs. It’s not that I completely lacked it before, but with more experience under my belt, I feel ok just letting disagreements go, feeling confident in my decisions despite criticism and having a gentle kind of “fuck off” attitude when it comes to expressing my opinions freely. It’s not that I don’t respect the opinions or advice of others, quite the contrary. I welcome dissent and differing opinions. It helps me grow as a person to challenge my own ideas against the experience, knowledge and difference of perspective that others bring to the table. But I’ve noticed that now, as others grow hostile in difference of opinion, I just don’t care about the conflict aspect of it anymore. I don’t worry what they think of me because of my opinions; whether good or bad, to be honest.
This has been a huge personal goal of mine for most of my life, to be able to handle criticism and take it in stride. I guess it just goes to show that some life goals take time in the making! But, I have to say, it was worth the wait!
I have a happy, healthy family. My children are amazing, and I enjoy watching them grow. My husband is devoted and thoughtful. My friends are lovely and we live in a wonderful community. I’ve got my woods, my gardens, my craft and a terrific home. Life is good. 40 is good!